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Well, I've learned recently that it's entirely possible to go from being an extrovert to an introvert

I used to be such an extrovert and I always thought that that would be the way I am forever. I would talk a lot, have nothing to hide from anyone, speak my mind freely when I feel like it, post a lot of crap on facebook and twitter about my life, my frustrations, everything.

Then recently it's just been lots of bottling everything up. Keeping quiet, thinking twice before I open my mouth or send out a tweet, choosing to sit alone in a corner at a party than mingle. And I feel fine about that. This wasn't caused by a single significant event, or a few, whatever. I'm not sad. I haven't done things that I have to keep secret. I don't know why, but this aspect of me has changed, a lot. And sometimes I wish it hadn't, because I had a lot of good memories in the past, being the life of the party (or at least I thought so). I do wonder why it is that I've changed so much. The people whom I've gotten to know only recently would never believe how I used to be like.

Oh, I don't know. Maybe it's just because I'm never around people that I'm actually 100% comfortable with since I started work. Maybe that's why. And that worries me too, because I love my job. But there are some days where I think about sustainability (lol) if I cant ever feel like I really fit in when I'm gonna be working for them for a whole year more.


AH JUST SOME LATE NIGHT THOUGHTS AFTER A PARTY WHICH I DIDN'T DRINK OR EAT OR TALK TO PEOPLE AT. I HATE LIFE

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